I was born and raised Catholic, and practiced Catholicism until after I married Lisenby. He was willing to go through whatever we needed to , so I could get married in the Catholic church, but only in name. I would not suborn perjury. I continued to be active in the church for a year or two after we were married, but was so alienated because of not being able to receive the sacraments, I finally gave up.
I have not returned to the church, although, from time to time, I think I want to. In 2011, I was accepted on the board of Catholic Family Service, Inc. (now Catholic Charities, Diocese of Lubbock http://www.cclubbock.org/) although I am not a practicing Catholic. I know Bishop Rodriquez had to approve. And, I know that a former board member, Joe Hart, now deceased, gave an impassioned endorsement of my participation at some time in the past.
Over the years, I have become so much more spiritual that I was when I was a practicing Catholic. I understand my ephemeral nature, the power of God, and that he leads me daily to perform on his behalf in my chosen profession. These are blessings beyond what I can measure.
I can not return to the Roman Catholic Church, because to do so would mean that I would have to lie about so many things. I do not want to engage in duplicities to be in the Church. I wish I could reconcile my thoughts and beliefs with the Roman Catholic Church, but I can not. The sad part is that I know the Church, an organization of man, is not as pure and pristine as it should be.
Having said all that, I can express my faith and perform my missions of spirituality through my work as a board member of Catholic Charities, Diocese of Lubbock. For this, I am thankful.
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