Being Brave

I do not do well in confrontational situations: I do not think quickly,  I get excited and stop thinking clearly, I am not quick with a ready retort.

I spend a long time hashing over most decisions. I am slow to decide, but when I decide, I am decisive in my actions.  Sometimes, I do not realize I am working on a decision. It lies in the background of my brain, and I review it over and over, but am not ready to act on it or make a decision.

Because I am so slow and dense, when I am confronted with a situation that requires a brave decision, I am not brave.  It is not that I do not want to do the right thing, it is that I can not think quickly enough what the right thing is. 

So, I feel like a coward.  I do not want to be a coward.  I just can not think that swiftly.