Monday, May 6, 2013

Commitment

It was a most beautiful evening. Just perfect for sitting out in the sun, at least until dusk.  I worked late, and had errands to run after work, so got home late. But still, there was time to sit outside.  Only if. I had committed to making cookies for the bake sale at work tomorrow.  And I knew if I sat outside until it was dusk or later, I would be too tired to come inside and make cookies.  As it was, I was very, very hungry, so I cooked myself a light dinner before I started on the cookies. And, I sat a while just to rest from the crush of work.  It helped to rejuvenate me.  But I just barely finished cookies, and it was all I could do to finish, about 9:30 PM. 

I just get too tired after work to take on many projects. I didn't used to be like this: Ken and I would pick vegetables and stay up until after midnight freezing them.  I used to get up in the morning, cook pumpkin and make pumpkin pies so Ken could take a warm pie to work in the morning.  Where has my energy gone? 

When I lived with Bob, it was not unusual for me to work outside until about 7 or 8 PM, then go inside and cook dinner, and clean up afterwards, of course, with his help.

But I no longer have that stamina.  Sometimes, when I force myself, it feels good. But the next several days, I pay the price.

So, my hope is maybe tomorrow night, it will be another beautiful night. I have some yard chores I want to do, and even if I do not have the energy for that, at least, I can sit outside and enjoy the beautiful weather.

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