Loose Ends

The last couple of nights, I left work a few minutes before 5 PM.  I usually do not leave work until 5 PM, or sometimes, much later.  But we have been on lockdown, and clinical efforts are severly restricted by that. 

I had done everything I could do within reason, and left close to the end of the day. Having said that, I put in well over 40 hours this week at work.

Last night, I had an errand to run on the way home. Even so, I arrived at the house much earlier than is normal.  As I did tonight.  However, because it was within feeding time for  the cats, and they are accustomed to me feeding  them when I get home, I fed the cats, did little household chores and then chilled out before fixing and eating dinner.

Last night, I could not get comfortable and found it very difficult to fall asleep.

Tonight, it is too early to think about falling asleep. I finished a book, and will start another soon, but am feeling at loose ends, and unable to settle down and really relax.

Part of the problem is the heat. We had had a spell of very pleasant weather that enabled me to open the house and sit in the back yard, in the evening, reading. I know it is too hot to open up the house. I think it might be too hot tonight to sit out, but I need to check that out.

Sometimes, I just feel "out of my skin." I dislike that feeling. But I know it is temporary. I do not know what causes it. I do not know what cures it.  It just is.