Thinking About Writing

I have not blogged since 8-8-13.  I was not too concerned about that for the first couple of nights. A break, a day off, is not bad.  But last night, I tried to blog, and could not clear my mind enough to be able to write anything. This happens, more frequently than I would wish, but it happens.

During the last few days, I have listened a lot to the Gregorian Chant CDs that I have.  They help to mellow me.  I have to say, I honestly believe that my physical health as well as my mental health improves when I listen to Gregorian Chants. The first Gregorian chant I purchased was "Salve Regina" on a Philips label.  Later, I purchased "Gregorian Melodies, Popular Chants Vol 11," and "Gregorian Book of Silos" 

I was reflecting the past few days, how much more physically safe and sound, and calm I am, when I listed to Gregorian chants. I have a CD of bagpipe music that also contributes to my mellowness, but not to my groundedness. And if that makes no sense, I am sorry, I cannot explain it any other way.

At work today, I was thinking about my inability to blog, and that I needed to listen to some of the Gregorian chants, if not all, that I have.

Imagine my surprise, as I drove home, that NPR had a story about the music of nuns: http://www.npr.org/2013/08/13/211639502/life-as-prayer-the-singing-nuns-of-ann-arbor.  I like the comments of the sister who says: "We bring people back where the culture, sad to say, is selling them short," Sister Joseph Andrew says. "The culture is not saying you need silence; you need to calm down; you need to meet God in however you might choose to worship him. And I think when you turn this music on, something interiorly starts to calm down. And there starts to be a freedom to be able to really listen to God within."

I so agree, and have discovered I so want to live my life with this calmness.  After Ken and I divorced, Mack, my dog, and I developed a pastoral kind of life. It was idyllic. 

Then, I got involved in a relationship with Bob.  I did not identify it at the time, although some of my friends did, but the emotional turmoil of the relationship was convulsive.  It was not until I was finally out of it in 2006 that I truly realized how destructive it was.

I have returned to a more idyllic existence. I still have turmoil in my life.  I would not be human if I did not. But life is so much more pastoral, and idyllic.  The Gregorian chants help me have the existence.