Saturday, November 12, 2011

A Bleak House

My house felt unusually bleak today.  I am not sure why.  But, I was out last night for the basketball games, ran errands and did chores this morning and early afternoon while the resoundingly bad Texas Tech football game http://www.texastech.com/ was on TV. It was so sad.  So, I guess after the football game, I did not have anything planned to look forward to, except to do some yard work. Which was not difficult. But I can not imagine having no plans has made this bleak feeling occur.  Usually, I look forward to the part of my weekend that does not include plans so I can read, knit, play on the computer or watch mindless TV.

I sat outside and read, and even had dinner outside and read outside after dinner.  Usually, when I come into the house, it feels warm and inviting. Tonight, it does not feel that way. 

I have some music on. There was nothing on TV I wanted to watch, and I have several books I want to read: this is not unusual.  What has changed is that I do not have the TV on while I am reading. But, I have moved to this habit more and more, and it has not made me feel so desolate.

There were clouds today, so it was a grey day, with some wind in the afternoon. It felt like a typical November day, as it should. But that should not effect the night. Of course, the clouds are obscuring the full moon.  Am I that sensitive to the changes in light?  I can not believe so.

I do not like overhead ceiling lights, and have area lights: floor lamps and table lamps, and tonight have them ablaze. 

Candles help, and I have a couple of scented candles lit.  I have to be careful with candles because of the cats.  But that is another story.

I stayed up late last night, although I was very tired when I returned home. But I was too wired to go to bed. So, it will be a later than earlier night tonight.

Maybe tomorrow I can find some cheer in my house.

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