Friday, November 8, 2013

Vulnerabillity and Faith

I am going to physical therapy for sciatica.  When my provider suggested physical therapy, she mentioned it might sound weird, but I did not think it did. When she said she was referring me to Spectra http://www.spectraphysicaltherapy.com/index.html, I was pleased.  I had heard many good things about the therapists at Spectra, it is convenient to my house, and they do accept my insurance.

PT has been an interesting experience for me. I have never done PT before. The evaluation was pretty much what I would have expected.  I started on traction, which was great, but the blinds  in the windows above me "moved" and caused me to experience nausea.  So, after the second time, I brought an eye mask to wear while I am in traction. 

That is a totally unique experience.  Being trussed up in traction is an intimidating experience. You are at the mercy of the traction machine and the professionals.  The professionals are very reassuring and comforting, but still, what if.... You are given a "panic" button to push if anything feels off, wrong, or heaven forbid, painful.

So, I enter into the therapy session, let them truss me up, put my glasses on a shelf, and cover my eyes. Although from the past sessions I know the traction is indeed relaxing, can you imagine how vulnerable you might feel if you cannot see, and are trussed up. The therapists are great. They acknowledge when they approach and what they are going to do.  The appreciate my motion sickness with the blinds. They make it an almost stress less experience. I still have a touch of "what if" in my mind set when I have my eyes covered. 

But, the traction does what it is supposed to do for my back, and the absence of a sense of nausea is great. Traction becomes almost a meditative experience for me..

So, while I feel vulnerable with my eyes covered, which, by the way is totally under my control, I feel 100% confident in my health care providers when I am in physical therapy.

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