Emotionally Spent

I am not sure why, but when I left work on Monday, I was so emotionally spent, I could not think what to do.  I went home and took care of the cats, as is my habit, but only after I drove a different way home, thinking I should go to the supermarket for a deli dinner, or whatever. But I did not want dinner from the deli.  I did not know what I wanted.

I went home, and fed the cats. And decided to go the Hong Kong Buffet https://www.facebook.com/pages/Hong-Kong-Restaurant/117387881620321.  I know that it does not always pass the health inspections.  I don't care. I like the selection.  I go to the restaurant with a book. They seat me, give me the pot of hot tea I order, and let me be.  They even just leave my tab and let me sit there without bothering me while I read.  I might sit for more than an hour.  I tip generously.  I read, eat and just relax.

I was torn between take out and staying at home, or getting the food I wanted.  At the Hong Kong Buffet, I can get a selection I enjoy: tonight I had 3 kinds of shrimp, little neck clams, mussels, soft shell crabs, octopus, as well as vegetables, beef and chicken.  I passed over the poached salmon, but I love poached salmon. I just have learned not to overstuff myself.

It was what I needed. Just not to have to think about dinner, let myself make choices, and let someone else clean up the mess.

Usually, I want to be at home as soon as I can after work.  I have become such a home body. Monday night, I just needed someone else to help take care of me.